I'm going to be totally honest and say I've been dreading making another one of these videos. I'm so close to my goal of 100, and yet I am utterly un-motivated!
While I was thinking through what I'd talk about today, I suddenly realized I completely missed the point of making the videos in the first place!
I'm unfortunately one for starting many projects and not finishing them, and I've always wondered why I do this. I always get started with excitement and am extremely motivated, but as it becomes a normal part of my day, I begin losing interest in it. Doing each video, I am always attempting to do something a bit better and putting my full effort into them even when I don't feel up to it.
I think part of the reason is how young I am and my desire for instant gratification, but I think another bigger reason is that I'm missing the point of beginning it at all!
I started these videos with a hazy purpose but knew that it would be valuable, unsure why or what the primary reason was. I'm certain that public speaking will have some major part in my future, so I want to get an early start not to waste time later on.
A secondary reason was to have a way to share what I am constantly thinking about. I hate to admit this, but I've always felt somewhat misunderstood; being only 17, this sounds like the typical thing someone of my age would say, and I've got no arguments to combat that. I am constantly viewing myself as different and have different reasons behind doing what I do. I'm not even sure what reasons I have behind the things I focus my efforts on, to be completely honest.
But above all else, the biggest reason was to enjoy the process of growth; I am getting too caught up in the details of learning that I'm not letting myself enjoy the whole journey!
Key takeaways:
1) I lose motivation when it becomes normal and normally does not fulfill instant gratification
2) I am unclear on the purpose of my projects, and so my excitement dies shortly after my motivation
3) My purpose was to improve my public speaking, share my thoughts, and most of all, enjoy the learning process!